Loneliness is a drug

 If love is like morphine, so lonely and like a drug, has been, I am in a drug called lonely.
Many times, night waking inexplicable, sudden cry, turn over, the original double bed is so big, I put the body bound in a league in a corner of the quilt, not breathing.

pour a cup of tea, watching the tea in the warmth of the water stretch your body, enjoy the bloom, I smile, the envy of the leaves, at least it can find a warm place of their own, completely free.
cup of tea, a person. lonely can not say anything, so lonely , lonely as I.

cold under the rain in Beijing, I wandered the streets thin, stubborn do not want to go home, the wind was a little yellow leaves scattered point the air, I do not know drifting out where am I going? do not know, but in fact it does not matter where, anyway, I am a man, no one worried about where have you been, doing nothing.
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bustling Xidan Square, the lively air, I'm breathing hard, trying to avoid the shuttle of the crowd. Since when, I'm not used to walk side by side two people, when do two people I am not used to shopping . Yes, I have always been a person, where is a person.
buy a lot of crazy things, proud of wanted to laugh, but quickly run away from, suddenly found the foot of the laces loose, I think tie it in prison, the streets under the rain, how do I do not dirty bag big bag big bag, and natural hands with shoelaces. If there is around him, he will help me fasten the shoelaces. my nose while sorrow and grief, I had called in a lonely drug.

finally about to a friend shopping with me, I do not know how long the phone has heard good Friends of the voice:

evening in the beautiful scenery of people feel depressed, I huddled in a corner of the balcony, and gradually the dark room, but I do not want stubborn lights, dusk and I had the same color, the original I have the same color with the loneliness, the night I was engulfed by loneliness engulfed, I can not break free!

I put away all of your albums, archive all the love letters you wrote me, diary I wrote to you.
I put away all the gifts you gave me, I sealed all of your memories and thoughts, to see myself as a normal life.
not with the past Friends talk, fear that they will think of too many things before. I try to avoid, escape not to think of how you how to make himself happy to escape with them.

quickly opened the computer, skilled landing QQ, BBS. When did you start indulging in online? I can not remember. thank the network to let myself have a free and happy space, and gradually lost Quedui network pleasure and comfort the beginning, the original , the network no match for the lonely drug addiction.

a person is lonely, looking at me but still this strange handsome man, closing the day the man in every possible way care and love, I also deeply touched, but that would have been the legendary lost love? my indifference, and his expression is so gentle, but I did not look up to see more, I panic, yes, a person loneliness, can two people but still alone.

loneliness like a poison, but I could not find a cure! panic of the night, lit a cigarette and inhaled fiercely , the original people can not resist the temptation of tobacco because it can be toxic, but in fact I still do not like the taste of tobacco, smoke encountered in my eyes will shed tears, you can also precisely because of this, but I love it!
heart no longer hurts, then I would love to find a good boyfriend!
- if one day I woke up in the middle of the night, like you, not crying, then I will not own life like a patient, I will let his good life, at least like a normal person!
tobacco burn the last of my tobacco, lonely cell division is still ongoing, I suppressed, but was it surrounded by .
lonely What color? fact alone is not the color of this! loneliness is a poison, a colorless, odorless toxic solution I do not know how!

my name is QQ antidote, my blog's name is the antidote to loneliness, in fact, I always ask if there is a drug the world can solve the drug, called lonely? hh